I believed that when I started the down this road for better health that it so at the time what was best for me and for a time that it worked. The only problem was that I realized that my journey wasn’t just about my physical health it was about my mental health as well. I would not trade anything in for the help, the love and support that I got during my challenges. So thank you, everyone, for that.
I am not a hundred percent where this new path is taking me, but I am feeling a lot more confident and focusing more on my inner self. I feel like I have made a significant improvement in my sessions. I do know that some months, weeks or even days are going to be better than others. I am learning to ride the waves, enjoy the journey and stop beating myself up. It started with looking at things that I wanted to change so clothing and makeup have played a massive part in this new mind swift.
I know that some will say that those are just temporary fixes and your right. I only use them as aids, I have started to find communities and more body positive avenues to help me along this path. This path that is saying” yes I am a plus size women and my curves are always going to be there.” I could lose all the weight or get surgy, but I will still have my hips, maybe some of my thighs and my backside. I have to face the facts that I will never have a perfect body so stop beating yourself up about and embarrass you. Everyone is going to have an opinion but does it really made at the end of the day if you are happy and enjoying your life.